I got caught with my rubber lover?

i have a blow up doll and it is very pleasurable...it makes a lot of noise too...my mom came in because she wanted to look at my room and make sure it was clean...she came in and seen me with my hangin out hunched over my doll...she screamed and ran and pushed me off while i was still hard...she left...i couldnt do anything but just sit there stunned she ran bak in like a bat outta hell and gave me a whipping (i was still hard) she hit me in my dong a couple of times then she poked a hole in my doll...i cant even look at my mom now...she jus seems so disappointd...how do i cope with this and get our mother som relationship back?