Will Having Always Be Like This?

Honey you are not pathetic or stupid. It was your first time and it seems as if your bf was far from concerned for you. If he kept having for 30 painful minutes he was no gentlemen. It take a few times of making love before it feels pleasurable and the pain goes away. I don't knew how big he is but his length or width may be too big for you? Don't rely on a condom because they do fail, believe me I know. Go to planned parenthood and get on birth control pills..